hmmm, I hate her :/.... JOKE! ah she's just so amazing! I love her to pieces!!!!
Sunday, 31 October 2010
Friday, 29 October 2010
Tuesday, 26 October 2010
blogging is addictive...
Hey guys
so you may have noticed that i've been blogging a lot more frequently, and i think the only reasons for that is that my life is seriously boring at the moment!! Im spending every moment of my free time because in pretty much every lesson except for PE im expected to get at least a level 8c (8a is th highest you can get at my age) and ive been working my little mismatched socks off!!! Also my arts award needs to be finished for the end of november, so ive been doing a lot of work on that at the minute.
Im in a hugely good at the minute, which is probably helped by me currently listening to nevershoutnever (chris drew) and stephen jerzak at the moment [if you havent heard either of them, i strongly recomend you do, theyre both amazing] and you just cant be sad with this kind of.
On thursday i have to teach a bunch of year 7 + 8 kids how to draw anime for my arts award, and im dreading it!!! im scared i will go wrong and totally make a fool mof myself!!!
This may sound compleatly over dramatic, but over the past week i have totally re-evaluated my life.
Latley my goals have been to impress the guy I like, and try to make an imact, but ive been neglecting other things. One thing i know ive been neglecting is my health. I went though a stage of thinking "ah screw it, im gonna eat what I like, I wont get fat" and so thats what I did. I was avoiding all the things i needed, and it wasnt good for me. I didnt exactly turn 'fat' but i had deffinitly filled out a bit, and that scared me. I mean, if my laziness has caused be to slightly put on weight, what else could it do? I dont want to be lazy and get fat, unhealthy and fall behind in my work. So ive sort had a re-evaluate. And dont panic, im not going on some crash diet thats gonna turn me anorexic or anything, I just think im gonna cut down on the chocoalte and eat more fruit. I have found out that I love apples... weird I know!!!
Also, all I wanted to do before was get the guy I like to like me back, and I just wanted people to be like "woah, shes made such an imact, shes so original and different" but i've realised their not good goals to have. There's plenty of time for being heartbroken in the future, I should just enjoy where I am now. I have awome friends, and great family, and so many things, like music, that can help me through things im hurting over, I dont need some testosterone filled boy to make me happy. And I know im never gonna get the guy I like, ebcause he's wayh out of my league and he is in love with someone else. Also, the whole making an impact by being different thing is stupid. I realised how much of a hypocrit ive been.
In a past blog I talked about how I hate stereo types and how bad they are, and yet here i was, trying to fit to a stereo type so that I could make an impact by being different. If your trying to fit a stereo type then your not being different!!! If you strive to be an 'emo' or a 'scene kid' then your obviously not one. If you have to change yourself to fit someone elses rules on an image, then its not worth it.
Im not perfect, no one is. Im not the girl with the designer clothes, or the big boobs. My hair doesnt always fall perfectly, I make mistakes and some days im a mess, inside and out. But all my little flaws, my quirks and even my mistakes, without them id just be another clone, a sheep following the crowd. And thats not who UI want to be. All the problems that I have build up to make who I am. They mingle with my good qualities and thats what makes me. If i try and get rid of all of those things, weather its with pretending im someone im not, or trying to hide then with makeup and hairspray, then im not gonna be who I am. I dont want all of those things to be taken away from me. If someone said to me "take this drug and it will make you compleatly perfect" then id say "no thanks" because I dont want to be perfect. I enjopy being a freak, I love being odd, I love not fitting in, because id rather be me and not fit in, than pretend to be someone else and fit in. Im not perfect, but thats fine, ebcause I dont expect anyone else to be perfect either. Im not looking for a 'perfect guy'. Im just looking for someone who will love me for who i am, and love all of my imperfections. Perfect is no fun to be honest.
Ive always been dsrawn to things with history, even if its dark. I dont want some who is 2D and predictable. I want someone REAL! someone who isnt afraid to vbe themselves. No one is perfect every day, everyone has bad days, and you just have to embrace them because you never know who could be falling in love with you, for who you are.
A lopt of girls my age get into relationships with boys and if you ask them why they are going out withn someone they will say "because he's fit". I'll never understand that. When someone says that i just want to scream "SO WHAT?!" i mean, yeah a guy might be 'fit'... but to be, all that doesnt matter. I want someone who has a great personality, a person who I can trust, and someone who loves me for who I am. I would never go out with a guy just because he was 'fit'. Whats the point of going out with a six-pack on legs if he has all the personality of a bedside lamp!!! Whats the point of being someone 'fit' if they bore you to tears?! thats the thing i'll never understand. I like things that are beaten, worn, things that have a bit of dirt on them. Theyre the fun ones, the ones with character.
Im really rambling arent i? I just really have had a total epiphany and i needed somewhere to write about it, and unfortunatly, you guys are stuck with it :P
Maybe this has helped/interested you... i dont know, but this feels good for me, to actually get everythiong out.
Loves
-DangerDays_
xxx
so you may have noticed that i've been blogging a lot more frequently, and i think the only reasons for that is that my life is seriously boring at the moment!! Im spending every moment of my free time because in pretty much every lesson except for PE im expected to get at least a level 8c (8a is th highest you can get at my age) and ive been working my little mismatched socks off!!! Also my arts award needs to be finished for the end of november, so ive been doing a lot of work on that at the minute.
Im in a hugely good at the minute, which is probably helped by me currently listening to nevershoutnever (chris drew) and stephen jerzak at the moment [if you havent heard either of them, i strongly recomend you do, theyre both amazing] and you just cant be sad with this kind of.
On thursday i have to teach a bunch of year 7 + 8 kids how to draw anime for my arts award, and im dreading it!!! im scared i will go wrong and totally make a fool mof myself!!!
This may sound compleatly over dramatic, but over the past week i have totally re-evaluated my life.
Latley my goals have been to impress the guy I like, and try to make an imact, but ive been neglecting other things. One thing i know ive been neglecting is my health. I went though a stage of thinking "ah screw it, im gonna eat what I like, I wont get fat" and so thats what I did. I was avoiding all the things i needed, and it wasnt good for me. I didnt exactly turn 'fat' but i had deffinitly filled out a bit, and that scared me. I mean, if my laziness has caused be to slightly put on weight, what else could it do? I dont want to be lazy and get fat, unhealthy and fall behind in my work. So ive sort had a re-evaluate. And dont panic, im not going on some crash diet thats gonna turn me anorexic or anything, I just think im gonna cut down on the chocoalte and eat more fruit. I have found out that I love apples... weird I know!!!
Also, all I wanted to do before was get the guy I like to like me back, and I just wanted people to be like "woah, shes made such an imact, shes so original and different" but i've realised their not good goals to have. There's plenty of time for being heartbroken in the future, I should just enjoy where I am now. I have awome friends, and great family, and so many things, like music, that can help me through things im hurting over, I dont need some testosterone filled boy to make me happy. And I know im never gonna get the guy I like, ebcause he's wayh out of my league and he is in love with someone else. Also, the whole making an impact by being different thing is stupid. I realised how much of a hypocrit ive been.
In a past blog I talked about how I hate stereo types and how bad they are, and yet here i was, trying to fit to a stereo type so that I could make an impact by being different. If your trying to fit a stereo type then your not being different!!! If you strive to be an 'emo' or a 'scene kid' then your obviously not one. If you have to change yourself to fit someone elses rules on an image, then its not worth it.
Im not perfect, no one is. Im not the girl with the designer clothes, or the big boobs. My hair doesnt always fall perfectly, I make mistakes and some days im a mess, inside and out. But all my little flaws, my quirks and even my mistakes, without them id just be another clone, a sheep following the crowd. And thats not who UI want to be. All the problems that I have build up to make who I am. They mingle with my good qualities and thats what makes me. If i try and get rid of all of those things, weather its with pretending im someone im not, or trying to hide then with makeup and hairspray, then im not gonna be who I am. I dont want all of those things to be taken away from me. If someone said to me "take this drug and it will make you compleatly perfect" then id say "no thanks" because I dont want to be perfect. I enjopy being a freak, I love being odd, I love not fitting in, because id rather be me and not fit in, than pretend to be someone else and fit in. Im not perfect, but thats fine, ebcause I dont expect anyone else to be perfect either. Im not looking for a 'perfect guy'. Im just looking for someone who will love me for who i am, and love all of my imperfections. Perfect is no fun to be honest.
Ive always been dsrawn to things with history, even if its dark. I dont want some who is 2D and predictable. I want someone REAL! someone who isnt afraid to vbe themselves. No one is perfect every day, everyone has bad days, and you just have to embrace them because you never know who could be falling in love with you, for who you are.
A lopt of girls my age get into relationships with boys and if you ask them why they are going out withn someone they will say "because he's fit". I'll never understand that. When someone says that i just want to scream "SO WHAT?!" i mean, yeah a guy might be 'fit'... but to be, all that doesnt matter. I want someone who has a great personality, a person who I can trust, and someone who loves me for who I am. I would never go out with a guy just because he was 'fit'. Whats the point of going out with a six-pack on legs if he has all the personality of a bedside lamp!!! Whats the point of being someone 'fit' if they bore you to tears?! thats the thing i'll never understand. I like things that are beaten, worn, things that have a bit of dirt on them. Theyre the fun ones, the ones with character.
Im really rambling arent i? I just really have had a total epiphany and i needed somewhere to write about it, and unfortunatly, you guys are stuck with it :P
Maybe this has helped/interested you... i dont know, but this feels good for me, to actually get everythiong out.
Loves
-DangerDays_
xxx
Monday, 25 October 2010
school :(
Hey guys!!!
So i back at school officially now, and its just as awful as i remembered :D I got asked by some 'cool' year 7 "are you an EMO or are you just a freak?"... whats was my reply "actually, im weird... in my own 'special' way" :P I got told serveral times to shut up about MCR... but i cant!!! Im just so excited!!! Its only 28 (i think) days to Danger Days is released. I have pre ordered it on amazon, im sure you can to :P My lovely father was nice enough to pay for express delivery, so its should get here on the 22nd or the day after :D Also, the tour page of the mcr official website is now my home screen on my laptop... i will NOT miss tickets this time!!!
Next thursday and the thursday afterwards me and 2 of my friends are gonna teach a bunch of years 7's art at lunch times for our arts awards. The whole arts award thing started off fun, drawing and going to shows and stuff, and now its just got really boring, i dont want art to become a chore and thats how it feels at the minute.
got to go now.. arts award homework... wooh
loves xxx
-DangerDays_
So i back at school officially now, and its just as awful as i remembered :D I got asked by some 'cool' year 7 "are you an EMO or are you just a freak?"... whats was my reply "actually, im weird... in my own 'special' way" :P I got told serveral times to shut up about MCR... but i cant!!! Im just so excited!!! Its only 28 (i think) days to Danger Days is released. I have pre ordered it on amazon, im sure you can to :P My lovely father was nice enough to pay for express delivery, so its should get here on the 22nd or the day after :D Also, the tour page of the mcr official website is now my home screen on my laptop... i will NOT miss tickets this time!!!
Next thursday and the thursday afterwards me and 2 of my friends are gonna teach a bunch of years 7's art at lunch times for our arts awards. The whole arts award thing started off fun, drawing and going to shows and stuff, and now its just got really boring, i dont want art to become a chore and thats how it feels at the minute.
got to go now.. arts award homework... wooh
loves xxx
-DangerDays_
Saturday, 23 October 2010
Oh yay, a weekend full of homework :/
Hey guys :P
As usual i've left all of my homework to the last minute, so I think im gonna try and get it all done today so i can actually enjoy myself tomorrow :P
Last night was really bizarre :s
I've been in an amazing mood lately, like really good, which is unusual for me because my good moods only ever last a couple of days, but ive been in a good mood for at least a month and a half. I was hoping that maybe my bipolar had started to sort itself out (before anyone asks for details, I have a mild for of bipolar disorder [mild my arse!], so i dont have any medication, but my moods are really up and down)
So anyway, I'd been in a good mood for a stupidly long time, and then last night I just hit rock bottom. I wouoldnt talk to anyone, although no one noticed how I was feeling, but it was just really scary. Id been on an up so long I forgot what it was like to be down.
I had this bizarre feeling that my life was never gonna amount to anything, i'd be stuck being a nobody for my whole life. Also, I started missing someone who hasnt even come into my mind for at least 8 months, and that person has really changed, and the person they are now isnt the person who i miss, so i know i'll never get that person back, and that really upset me, because i never thought i'd miss them again.
I just felt really alone, and it really bothered me. I couldnt sleep last night, but i did have some time to think. This morning im feeling a bit better, so hopefully I wont go to school on monday in a super depressed mood, cuz that wouldnt be fair on my friends, they hate having to deal with me while im depressed :/
In happier news... LESS THAN A MONTH TILL THE NEW MCR ALBUM!!
and for anyone who's wondering, I didnt get a call from kerrang!, so im guessing i didnt win :P
lets hope my mood improves :/
--DangerDays_
As usual i've left all of my homework to the last minute, so I think im gonna try and get it all done today so i can actually enjoy myself tomorrow :P
Last night was really bizarre :s
I've been in an amazing mood lately, like really good, which is unusual for me because my good moods only ever last a couple of days, but ive been in a good mood for at least a month and a half. I was hoping that maybe my bipolar had started to sort itself out (before anyone asks for details, I have a mild for of bipolar disorder [mild my arse!], so i dont have any medication, but my moods are really up and down)
So anyway, I'd been in a good mood for a stupidly long time, and then last night I just hit rock bottom. I wouoldnt talk to anyone, although no one noticed how I was feeling, but it was just really scary. Id been on an up so long I forgot what it was like to be down.
I had this bizarre feeling that my life was never gonna amount to anything, i'd be stuck being a nobody for my whole life. Also, I started missing someone who hasnt even come into my mind for at least 8 months, and that person has really changed, and the person they are now isnt the person who i miss, so i know i'll never get that person back, and that really upset me, because i never thought i'd miss them again.
I just felt really alone, and it really bothered me. I couldnt sleep last night, but i did have some time to think. This morning im feeling a bit better, so hopefully I wont go to school on monday in a super depressed mood, cuz that wouldnt be fair on my friends, they hate having to deal with me while im depressed :/
In happier news... LESS THAN A MONTH TILL THE NEW MCR ALBUM!!
and for anyone who's wondering, I didnt get a call from kerrang!, so im guessing i didnt win :P
lets hope my mood improves :/
--DangerDays_
Friday, 22 October 2010
who do you fabcy ? <3 xx
There is one person... but I don't really wanna say, they know it, so that's all that counts.
who is this?
and the bordom starts...
Heyya guys
So i've decided to post another blog tody because I actaully have nothing else to do!!!
I have about 3 pieces of homewok that I should really be doing, but im really not in the mood, so im gonna come on here and talk about some things that really matter to me!
One of the main thigs that bothers me in life is stereo-typing. If you dont know what a stereo trpe is, it is a simplified and standardized conception or image invested with special meaning and held in common by members of a group. And that in ENGLISH means, that you sort of brand someone as something, based on their appearence, or sometimes their opinions. for example, people with black side swept fringes, black skinny jeans, dark t-shirts and makeup (both genders) will a lot of the time be stereotyped as 'emo'.
In my opinion stereotypes are just words. They dont mean anything. This is just my opinion, but there is no such thing as an 'Emo' or a 'prep'. They are just words people use to describe people. I think a lot of people use stereotypes to help themselves fit in, or a lot of the time to insult/put down certain people. Music is often stereotyped, and this is one of the things that infuroates me most. One band who I actually love so much, and has helped me through so much, has been landed with so much s**t due to stereotypes. This band is My Chemical Romance. People seem to think that they are an 'emo' band, even though the members have all stated that they are anything but emo. Also, people seem to asscosiate 'Emo' with self harm/suicide, and if ou are a follower of news about MCR, then you will know how this has affected them.
A couple of years ago, the UK newspaper 'the daily mail' published an atricle about my chemical romance, saying they were leaders of a 'suicide cult' and that their songs promote suicide and self harm. One girl, i will not mention her name, because 1. I cant remember it (whoops :S) and 2.u probably dont care about the details, but this one girl had commited suicide, saying she was going to go and join 'the black parade', the FICTIONAL setting of my chemical romance's newest album. This set off a lot of bed reviews on mcr. It is a tragidy that this girl took her own life, and i am not trying to avoid that fact, but just because one prson interpited their music in that way, doesnt make them leaders of a suicide cult.
You tell me, do the lyrics 'i am not afraid to keep on living, i am not afraid to walk this world alone' promote suicide? I dont think so! In my opinion, the message behind MCR's lyrics is that no matter how hard things get, theres always someone out there who can help. Nothing is worth hurting yourself over.
When asked, my chemical roamcne said that they were here to 'save kids lives' and i think they have done that. Personally, i have had times when i didnt think there ws any point caryying on, but people like MCR have helped me see sense.
MCR fans are not a cult, they are an army. They are a group of people who share a love for the music that 5 (now 4) guys create, and are helped by the message behind it.
Everyone has their own opinion, and this is just mine, so please dont be offended by it, I just wanted to put mine out there, take it or leave it, its up to you...
This blogs kinda turned into a rant/preach hasnt it? Ah well, i just needed to get this off my chest, and its nice to write down things that bother you.
loves xxx
--DangerDays_
So i've decided to post another blog tody because I actaully have nothing else to do!!!
I have about 3 pieces of homewok that I should really be doing, but im really not in the mood, so im gonna come on here and talk about some things that really matter to me!
One of the main thigs that bothers me in life is stereo-typing. If you dont know what a stereo trpe is, it is a simplified and standardized conception or image invested with special meaning and held in common by members of a group. And that in ENGLISH means, that you sort of brand someone as something, based on their appearence, or sometimes their opinions. for example, people with black side swept fringes, black skinny jeans, dark t-shirts and makeup (both genders) will a lot of the time be stereotyped as 'emo'.
In my opinion stereotypes are just words. They dont mean anything. This is just my opinion, but there is no such thing as an 'Emo' or a 'prep'. They are just words people use to describe people. I think a lot of people use stereotypes to help themselves fit in, or a lot of the time to insult/put down certain people. Music is often stereotyped, and this is one of the things that infuroates me most. One band who I actually love so much, and has helped me through so much, has been landed with so much s**t due to stereotypes. This band is My Chemical Romance. People seem to think that they are an 'emo' band, even though the members have all stated that they are anything but emo. Also, people seem to asscosiate 'Emo' with self harm/suicide, and if ou are a follower of news about MCR, then you will know how this has affected them.
A couple of years ago, the UK newspaper 'the daily mail' published an atricle about my chemical romance, saying they were leaders of a 'suicide cult' and that their songs promote suicide and self harm. One girl, i will not mention her name, because 1. I cant remember it (whoops :S) and 2.u probably dont care about the details, but this one girl had commited suicide, saying she was going to go and join 'the black parade', the FICTIONAL setting of my chemical romance's newest album. This set off a lot of bed reviews on mcr. It is a tragidy that this girl took her own life, and i am not trying to avoid that fact, but just because one prson interpited their music in that way, doesnt make them leaders of a suicide cult.
You tell me, do the lyrics 'i am not afraid to keep on living, i am not afraid to walk this world alone' promote suicide? I dont think so! In my opinion, the message behind MCR's lyrics is that no matter how hard things get, theres always someone out there who can help. Nothing is worth hurting yourself over.
When asked, my chemical roamcne said that they were here to 'save kids lives' and i think they have done that. Personally, i have had times when i didnt think there ws any point caryying on, but people like MCR have helped me see sense.
MCR fans are not a cult, they are an army. They are a group of people who share a love for the music that 5 (now 4) guys create, and are helped by the message behind it.
Everyone has their own opinion, and this is just mine, so please dont be offended by it, I just wanted to put mine out there, take it or leave it, its up to you...
This blogs kinda turned into a rant/preach hasnt it? Ah well, i just needed to get this off my chest, and its nice to write down things that bother you.
loves xxx
--DangerDays_
competitions :P
Hey guys!!!
This is a real quick post, i just need somewhere to get my nerves and excitment out!!! Ive recently entered a competition in kerrang! magazine to win the chance to meet MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!!! yes you heard that right, if you win you get to me THE my chemical romance, and then see the concert!!! The competition closes today, and i think they call the 2 winners today to, seeing as the conceret/meeting is tomorrow!!! Im praying I win, it would juist be an amazing expierience!!!
thats all ive got to say at the minute... so BYEEEE!!!
xxx
--DangerDays_
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This is a real quick post, i just need somewhere to get my nerves and excitment out!!! Ive recently entered a competition in kerrang! magazine to win the chance to meet MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!!! yes you heard that right, if you win you get to me THE my chemical romance, and then see the concert!!! The competition closes today, and i think they call the 2 winners today to, seeing as the conceret/meeting is tomorrow!!! Im praying I win, it would juist be an amazing expierience!!!
thats all ive got to say at the minute... so BYEEEE!!!
xxx
--DangerDays_
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Monday, 18 October 2010
I FOUND A PEANUT YESTERDAY!!!
Hiya!
So, long time no... erm... type i guess :D Sorry i didn't post for ages, I've been really... well, no, actually, i haven't been busy, Ive been bored, so, I've been, Ah I'm just making excuses!!! I forgot about this blog okay!!!
I'm sooowwwwyyy!!!
But anyway, I'm hear now!!! So, Belgium was actualy bloody amazing!! It was literally the best week ever!!! We went to cemetery's and battle fields, we went chocolate shopping, sang VERY annoying songs on the bus ("I FOUND A PEANUT I FOUND A PEANUT I FOUND A PEANUT YESTERDAY!"), and on the last night, had a bit of a head banging sesh to bfmv and slipknot with some awesome people (if your reading this you know who you are!) .
But it was just a really good week, and I would happily live it again!!
So yeah, after getting back from Belgium, i had to go straight back to school, which wasn't fun! You really get so much homework in year 9, a lot more than year 8!!! I've had an open evening at my next school to pick my options for GCSE which I'm quite excited about! i think I'm going to do triple science and something like computing or photography, because i wanna be a doctor, so the science is important.
On Saturday, i went into town with my awesome friend Laura (check her out at twistedwordsofwisdom@blogspot.com ) and we had an amazing day!!! We bought a huge carton of gumballs, just because we can, and then went on the teacups with a bunch of 5 year olds. We messed up Starbucks and spent about an hour in waterstones looking for wally ;) I t was an amazing day, and i had a great time. (LOVE YOU LAURA!!!)
And that's it really, its half term now, so I'm gonna go and do my huge amount of homework so I have the rest of the week free to do anything :D
Peace out!!!
So, long time no... erm... type i guess :D Sorry i didn't post for ages, I've been really... well, no, actually, i haven't been busy, Ive been bored, so, I've been, Ah I'm just making excuses!!! I forgot about this blog okay!!!
I'm sooowwwwyyy!!!
But anyway, I'm hear now!!! So, Belgium was actualy bloody amazing!! It was literally the best week ever!!! We went to cemetery's and battle fields, we went chocolate shopping, sang VERY annoying songs on the bus ("I FOUND A PEANUT I FOUND A PEANUT I FOUND A PEANUT YESTERDAY!"), and on the last night, had a bit of a head banging sesh to bfmv and slipknot with some awesome people (if your reading this you know who you are!) .
But it was just a really good week, and I would happily live it again!!
So yeah, after getting back from Belgium, i had to go straight back to school, which wasn't fun! You really get so much homework in year 9, a lot more than year 8!!! I've had an open evening at my next school to pick my options for GCSE which I'm quite excited about! i think I'm going to do triple science and something like computing or photography, because i wanna be a doctor, so the science is important.
On Saturday, i went into town with my awesome friend Laura (check her out at twistedwordsofwisdom@blogspot.com ) and we had an amazing day!!! We bought a huge carton of gumballs, just because we can, and then went on the teacups with a bunch of 5 year olds. We messed up Starbucks and spent about an hour in waterstones looking for wally ;) I t was an amazing day, and i had a great time. (LOVE YOU LAURA!!!)
And that's it really, its half term now, so I'm gonna go and do my huge amount of homework so I have the rest of the week free to do anything :D
Peace out!!!
--DangerDays_
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