Hey guys :P
As usual i've left all of my homework to the last minute, so I think im gonna try and get it all done today so i can actually enjoy myself tomorrow :P
Last night was really bizarre :s
I've been in an amazing mood lately, like really good, which is unusual for me because my good moods only ever last a couple of days, but ive been in a good mood for at least a month and a half. I was hoping that maybe my bipolar had started to sort itself out (before anyone asks for details, I have a mild for of bipolar disorder [mild my arse!], so i dont have any medication, but my moods are really up and down)
So anyway, I'd been in a good mood for a stupidly long time, and then last night I just hit rock bottom. I wouoldnt talk to anyone, although no one noticed how I was feeling, but it was just really scary. Id been on an up so long I forgot what it was like to be down.
I had this bizarre feeling that my life was never gonna amount to anything, i'd be stuck being a nobody for my whole life. Also, I started missing someone who hasnt even come into my mind for at least 8 months, and that person has really changed, and the person they are now isnt the person who i miss, so i know i'll never get that person back, and that really upset me, because i never thought i'd miss them again.
I just felt really alone, and it really bothered me. I couldnt sleep last night, but i did have some time to think. This morning im feeling a bit better, so hopefully I wont go to school on monday in a super depressed mood, cuz that wouldnt be fair on my friends, they hate having to deal with me while im depressed :/
In happier news... LESS THAN A MONTH TILL THE NEW MCR ALBUM!!
and for anyone who's wondering, I didnt get a call from kerrang!, so im guessing i didnt win :P
lets hope my mood improves :/
--DangerDays_
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